So, to be honest, (which is what this blog is supposed to be all about) I'm having a hard time right now. It's not too bad, but I feel like I'm starting a down a path that I need to correct quickly. My weight is still where I was at the end of my round of HCG. It stays between 192 and 195. I guess I'm just down because I don't think I can make it to 170 by January 4th. I don't know how to lose weight without HCG. The protein shakes didn't work as far as I could tell. I still got light headed when I worked out, and I wasn't losing any weight. I'm being careful about what I eat now, but I'm not on any type of a "diet plan". That bothers me. I feel like I need a plan to keep losing weight, and right now I don't have one. I still have my exercise ball at my desk, and I still work out a few times a week. My arms don't hurt when I lift weights anymore, and my endurance on the elliptical machine is much higher. I know it's not all about the number, but it makes a big difference.
I just don't know how to do it. Everyone says, "diet and exercise". If you go back to the very first post on this blog, it should remind you that diet and exercise has never lead to weight loss for me. I had hoped that after HCG, my metabolism would be different enough for diet and exercise to work for me. BLAH-
For the record, I'm not giving up. Even if I can't get to 170, I can get as close as possible. My mindset though is fairly depressing.
I can't start back up on HCG until either January 31st or March 27th. Big difference, huh? This will be my 5th round. Between the 4th and 5th round, I am supposed to wait 20 weeks, which will put my start date at March 27th. The thing is, I'm not sure if my 3rd round really counted. I didn't do it right, and I think it lasted around 10 days. I feel like that shouldn't have changed my body enough to need to wait 20 weeks before I start another round. Between the 3rd and fourth round, I'm supposed to wait 12 weeks, which would put my start date at January 31st. I know that I probably shouldn't screw with it, and I should just wait the full 20 weeks, but that's 8 weeks! 2 months! I don't want to lose that time. I've lost so much time in my life because I was fat. I don't want to lose anymore.
That whole patience thing- it doesn't come so easy for me.
On another note- If you have EVER felt addicted to food, you should read this blog- www.onedayatatimehoney.blogspot.com
OMGOMGOMG!!!!!! I almost forgot to tell you- I bought a new pair of jeans. Size 14. Just sayin.
