So, to be honest, (which is what this blog is supposed to be all about) I'm having a hard time right now. It's not too bad, but I feel like I'm starting a down a path that I need to correct quickly. My weight is still where I was at the end of my round of HCG. It stays between 192 and 195. I guess I'm just down because I don't think I can make it to 170 by January 4th. I don't know how to lose weight without HCG. The protein shakes didn't work as far as I could tell. I still got light headed when I worked out, and I wasn't losing any weight. I'm being careful about what I eat now, but I'm not on any type of a "diet plan". That bothers me. I feel like I need a plan to keep losing weight, and right now I don't have one. I still have my exercise ball at my desk, and I still work out a few times a week. My arms don't hurt when I lift weights anymore, and my endurance on the elliptical machine is much higher. I know it's not all about the number, but it makes a big difference.
I just don't know how to do it. Everyone says, "diet and exercise". If you go back to the very first post on this blog, it should remind you that diet and exercise has never lead to weight loss for me. I had hoped that after HCG, my metabolism would be different enough for diet and exercise to work for me. BLAH-
For the record, I'm not giving up. Even if I can't get to 170, I can get as close as possible. My mindset though is fairly depressing.
I can't start back up on HCG until either January 31st or March 27th. Big difference, huh? This will be my 5th round. Between the 4th and 5th round, I am supposed to wait 20 weeks, which will put my start date at March 27th. The thing is, I'm not sure if my 3rd round really counted. I didn't do it right, and I think it lasted around 10 days. I feel like that shouldn't have changed my body enough to need to wait 20 weeks before I start another round. Between the 3rd and fourth round, I'm supposed to wait 12 weeks, which would put my start date at January 31st. I know that I probably shouldn't screw with it, and I should just wait the full 20 weeks, but that's 8 weeks! 2 months! I don't want to lose that time. I've lost so much time in my life because I was fat. I don't want to lose anymore.
That whole patience thing- it doesn't come so easy for me.
On another note- If you have EVER felt addicted to food, you should read this blog- www.onedayatatimehoney.blogspot.com
OMGOMGOMG!!!!!! I almost forgot to tell you- I bought a new pair of jeans. Size 14. Just sayin.
Thursday, December 1, 2011
Monday, November 28, 2011
The things that happen when you get up early:
I went to go work out this morning.
Worked on my arm flab. I don't feel like I'm going to drop the weight on my head anymore. I spent 30 minutes on the bike, then I worked on my tummy flab a little. I did crunches on the exercise ball. I really like it. If you do enough of them, it hurts pretty bad (which is how I know I'm doing something right), but it doesn't hurt my neck like doing them on the ground would. After crunches, I started to get on the treadmill and start C25K (google it).
Treadmills and I do not get along. I have no idea what "setting" to put them on that's fast enough to do some good, but slow enough so I don't fall off. I played with it for a few minutes, and "briskly walked" (translation: trying to keep my feet straight while stumbling) on it, then I gave up. There was nobody in the building to take me to the hospital if I face planted and riped my skin off. I decided it was best not to tempt fate. It's pretty sad when I feel like a treadmill is too high tech for me. There should be a setting for C25K on a treadmill. That'd be pretty cool.
So after my near disaster with the treadmill, I went to my old faithful elliptical machine (which, in theory, should be more high tech than a treadmill, but with an elliptical, I feel like I'm in control). Spent a half an hour there- no problem. I wanted to work on my arm flab a little more, but the cleaning lady was there, and I kinda feel like a moron with a pink tie around my elbows while I lift weights behind my head (thank you, Daddy, for that technique). Instead, I went back and spent another 20 mins on the bike while I waited for her to leave. She never did. That's okay. I figure you can't dis an hour and 20 minutes of cardio + some muscle work. Pretty good workout today.
Things I am getting used to:
Seeing my colar bone.
Shopping on the other side of the wall.
Staying on the elliptical machine for the whole 30 minutes.
Being aware of what I put in my body all the time.
Things I will never get used to:
Stretchy skin (any advice for that?)
People telling me how different I look
The first 10 minutes of a workout
Worked on my arm flab. I don't feel like I'm going to drop the weight on my head anymore. I spent 30 minutes on the bike, then I worked on my tummy flab a little. I did crunches on the exercise ball. I really like it. If you do enough of them, it hurts pretty bad (which is how I know I'm doing something right), but it doesn't hurt my neck like doing them on the ground would. After crunches, I started to get on the treadmill and start C25K (google it).
Treadmills and I do not get along. I have no idea what "setting" to put them on that's fast enough to do some good, but slow enough so I don't fall off. I played with it for a few minutes, and "briskly walked" (translation: trying to keep my feet straight while stumbling) on it, then I gave up. There was nobody in the building to take me to the hospital if I face planted and riped my skin off. I decided it was best not to tempt fate. It's pretty sad when I feel like a treadmill is too high tech for me. There should be a setting for C25K on a treadmill. That'd be pretty cool.
So after my near disaster with the treadmill, I went to my old faithful elliptical machine (which, in theory, should be more high tech than a treadmill, but with an elliptical, I feel like I'm in control). Spent a half an hour there- no problem. I wanted to work on my arm flab a little more, but the cleaning lady was there, and I kinda feel like a moron with a pink tie around my elbows while I lift weights behind my head (thank you, Daddy, for that technique). Instead, I went back and spent another 20 mins on the bike while I waited for her to leave. She never did. That's okay. I figure you can't dis an hour and 20 minutes of cardio + some muscle work. Pretty good workout today.
Things I am getting used to:
Seeing my colar bone.
Shopping on the other side of the wall.
Staying on the elliptical machine for the whole 30 minutes.
Being aware of what I put in my body all the time.
Things I will never get used to:
Stretchy skin (any advice for that?)
People telling me how different I look
The first 10 minutes of a workout
Friday, November 25, 2011
I did it again.
Just noticed that the last post said "293.6". I hope you all know that it should say "193.6."
I'll get used to putting a 1 in that spot at some point. It's sort of a happy mistake. I made it through Thanksgiving. I was very proud of myself. I had a small slice of chocolate pie, and that was all as far as sweets go. I did not go back for a second (or third) plate of food. My real fault is that I'm addicted to rolls. I probably shouldn't have eaten any, because they are triggers for me, but I ate one... then two... I think I had four or five total. That's not an okay number. I have to learn to stay away from bread.
I'm not sure what my weight is today. I've gotten bad about not weighing myself every morning. On top of that I've been working weird hours, and I'm not really sure when "morning" actually is. I'm good though. I still feel good, and I'm still sitting on my ball at work. I LOVE it. It gives me energy.
I'll weigh myself before work tomorrow morning and give you a full overview. I'm may not make it to 170 by January 4th, but if I don't, it won't be from lack of effort. 40 days. Around 20-25 lbs left. I got this.
~~~~~~~~Shoot for the moon.~~~~~~~~
I'll get used to putting a 1 in that spot at some point. It's sort of a happy mistake. I made it through Thanksgiving. I was very proud of myself. I had a small slice of chocolate pie, and that was all as far as sweets go. I did not go back for a second (or third) plate of food. My real fault is that I'm addicted to rolls. I probably shouldn't have eaten any, because they are triggers for me, but I ate one... then two... I think I had four or five total. That's not an okay number. I have to learn to stay away from bread.
I'm not sure what my weight is today. I've gotten bad about not weighing myself every morning. On top of that I've been working weird hours, and I'm not really sure when "morning" actually is. I'm good though. I still feel good, and I'm still sitting on my ball at work. I LOVE it. It gives me energy.
I'll weigh myself before work tomorrow morning and give you a full overview. I'm may not make it to 170 by January 4th, but if I don't, it won't be from lack of effort. 40 days. Around 20-25 lbs left. I got this.
~~~~~~~~Shoot for the moon.~~~~~~~~
Monday, November 14, 2011
Today- 293.6
Not doing bad... at least I'm still keeping the weight off. I figured I'd be losing weight still, but I'm being patient.
Couple of mile markers today:
Been to the gym every day for the past at least 4 days. I'm pretty satisfied.
- I stayed on the elliptical machine for 30 minutes straight today. There was a much smaller lady who was on the treadmill for 20 or so doing C25K. She got off before me, and when I got off she just stared and said, "I couldn't do that."
- Spent 35 on the bike first though. I try to spend at least an hour doing cardio.
- Been doing a little muscle work. Not much, just enough to get rid of the underarm flab.
- Didn't feel wobbly as I walked down the stairs of the clubhouse when I was done.
- Gonna have to mix up the shakes somehow soon. Getting kinda gross.
Couple of mile markers today:
Been to the gym every day for the past at least 4 days. I'm pretty satisfied.
- I stayed on the elliptical machine for 30 minutes straight today. There was a much smaller lady who was on the treadmill for 20 or so doing C25K. She got off before me, and when I got off she just stared and said, "I couldn't do that."
- Spent 35 on the bike first though. I try to spend at least an hour doing cardio.
- Been doing a little muscle work. Not much, just enough to get rid of the underarm flab.
- Didn't feel wobbly as I walked down the stairs of the clubhouse when I was done.
- Gonna have to mix up the shakes somehow soon. Getting kinda gross.
Sunday, November 13, 2011
Thank you, HCG! I'll take it from here (for now).
Alrighty-
I'm not putting my weight on here today, because I have not been weighing myself every morning like I'm supposed to. I have been doing everything else wonderfully, I'm just not sure how much I weigh today. It's probably between 192-195.
I'm not really sure how to explain my game plan for the rest of the year, except what I already have explained in the last post, so I'll just explain what my day looked like today.
06:30- I made a protein shake and drank it on my way to work.
07:45- Ate a banana.
08:15- Took a women's one-a-day multivitamin.
08:30- Drank a cup of coffee in it with a small amount of 2% milk and some Equal.
12:00- Drank another protein shake for lunch.
12:45- Ate another banana.
- I've gone through 2 or 3 bottles of water today, but I'm not sure how much.
At 6:00 or so, I'm going to eat a salad for dinner. It's got a hard boiled egg, ham, turkey, tomatoes etc. in it. I do not eat any dressing on it. I'm trying to learn not to eat so close to bed time.
Last night, I went to work out after I got home. I got off work at 7:00 last night, and got to the gym around 8:00. By the time I got home and showered, it was after 10:00. I didn't feel like eating, but I hadn't really ate anything other than my bananas all day. So, I figure the early dinner will help with that.
When I work out, I mostly do cardio. I want to burn calories without building much muscle. Last night, I worked with Dad on my arms. They are kinda flabby in the typical areas, and I'd like to fix that. The more weight I lose, the more that flab hangs. Dad showed me some stuff I can do to work on those areas, but I'm really trying to be careful not to build muscle instead of losing weight. My arms are sore today.
I've seen a common concern with people about my current game plan that I would like to address. People say that by drinking protein shakes, it triggers my body to gain mass instead of lose it. This would be true if I ate a normal amount of food with these protein shakes, and/or if I put a lot of my powder in the shakes.
Look at a typical Special K/Slim Fast diet plan.
2 protein shakes a day.
2-3 snacks a day.
1 real meal.
Work out.
I'm doing the same thing as far as I can tell, except that my shakes do not have 14-20g of sugar. They are only about 140 calories. Also, I can't tell the difference between the "diet protein bars" and a candy bar, except that they have half the calories and more protein. They have a TON of sugar... why??? I'd rather have something healthy without the sugar. I don't want to mess up my progress with HCG by breaking the rules and eating sugar like that before my 2 weeks are up.
I'm also still sitting on my exercise ball at my desk. I'm thinking about getting another one for home. I've had one at home before, but I really never knew what to do with it. A coworker showed me that I can use it for crunches and stuff and maybe minimize the flab on my stomach that used to be a giant belly.
Yay for fun workouts!
I'm not putting my weight on here today, because I have not been weighing myself every morning like I'm supposed to. I have been doing everything else wonderfully, I'm just not sure how much I weigh today. It's probably between 192-195.
I'm not really sure how to explain my game plan for the rest of the year, except what I already have explained in the last post, so I'll just explain what my day looked like today.
06:30- I made a protein shake and drank it on my way to work.
07:45- Ate a banana.
08:15- Took a women's one-a-day multivitamin.
08:30- Drank a cup of coffee in it with a small amount of 2% milk and some Equal.
12:00- Drank another protein shake for lunch.
12:45- Ate another banana.
- I've gone through 2 or 3 bottles of water today, but I'm not sure how much.
At 6:00 or so, I'm going to eat a salad for dinner. It's got a hard boiled egg, ham, turkey, tomatoes etc. in it. I do not eat any dressing on it. I'm trying to learn not to eat so close to bed time.
Last night, I went to work out after I got home. I got off work at 7:00 last night, and got to the gym around 8:00. By the time I got home and showered, it was after 10:00. I didn't feel like eating, but I hadn't really ate anything other than my bananas all day. So, I figure the early dinner will help with that.
When I work out, I mostly do cardio. I want to burn calories without building much muscle. Last night, I worked with Dad on my arms. They are kinda flabby in the typical areas, and I'd like to fix that. The more weight I lose, the more that flab hangs. Dad showed me some stuff I can do to work on those areas, but I'm really trying to be careful not to build muscle instead of losing weight. My arms are sore today.
I've seen a common concern with people about my current game plan that I would like to address. People say that by drinking protein shakes, it triggers my body to gain mass instead of lose it. This would be true if I ate a normal amount of food with these protein shakes, and/or if I put a lot of my powder in the shakes.
Look at a typical Special K/Slim Fast diet plan.
2 protein shakes a day.
2-3 snacks a day.
1 real meal.
Work out.
I'm doing the same thing as far as I can tell, except that my shakes do not have 14-20g of sugar. They are only about 140 calories. Also, I can't tell the difference between the "diet protein bars" and a candy bar, except that they have half the calories and more protein. They have a TON of sugar... why??? I'd rather have something healthy without the sugar. I don't want to mess up my progress with HCG by breaking the rules and eating sugar like that before my 2 weeks are up.
I'm also still sitting on my exercise ball at my desk. I'm thinking about getting another one for home. I've had one at home before, but I really never knew what to do with it. A coworker showed me that I can use it for crunches and stuff and maybe minimize the flab on my stomach that used to be a giant belly.
Yay for fun workouts!
Thursday, November 10, 2011
Apparently, I need to update
Monday- 11/7 I weighed in at 192.6. Sunday was the last day of the drops. Girls weekend was Monday- Wednesday, and I was pretty well behaved. I'm not sure what I weigh today. I worked overnight, and didn't check when I woke up this afternoon.
Here's my current game plan:
Here's my current game plan:
2 protein shakes a day
1 real meal---- HEALTHY
1 women’s one-a-day multivitamin
I am sitting on an exercise ball at work. That’s a lot of
hours of sitting on a ball. I know it's not really working out if I'm just sitting on it, but it's good for posture, and it keeps me from resting all the time. It's also supposed to be good for your abs- YAY for possible flat tummy.
I am going to get some healthy snacks up here to keep my
metabolism going.
I bought 4lb weights today that sit on my desk as well. I
have some free time, and those are going to be awesome!
I was thinking about doing Slim Fast, but there is a TON of sugar in those shakes. Instead, I just started doing whey protein shakes with the Slim Fast plan. I'll substitute the Slim Fast shakes with healthier ones, and the protein bars with healthy snacks when I need them. I'll still eat a healthy meal a day.
I am just not comfortable consuming the amount of sugar that is in a Slim Fast or Special K shake or protein bar in any one sitting (let alone multiple times a day). We'll see how my specialized plan works out.
Thursday, November 3, 2011
193.8
Just saying.... I'm awesome.
I'm highly irritable today. This has nothing to do with my food intake, but I can't imagine blogging today without mentioning it. I might update this more later tonight, but I just wanted to let you all know that I'm awesome. Almost 2 pounds in one day at the very end of the diet.
I'm about to go get Subway for dinner. I figure I could use some veggie intake. :-)
I'm highly irritable today. This has nothing to do with my food intake, but I can't imagine blogging today without mentioning it. I might update this more later tonight, but I just wanted to let you all know that I'm awesome. Almost 2 pounds in one day at the very end of the diet.
I'm about to go get Subway for dinner. I figure I could use some veggie intake. :-)
Wednesday, November 2, 2011
Day... ummm... 34. 6 days left on the drops. 9 days on VLCD
So much to say....
Let's start with the fact that I'm at 195.6. I know progress is slow right now, but progress is progress.
My period starts in 2 days, (according to the app on my phone that says so, I'm not sure I believe it. We'll see.) and supposedly, you stop losing weight when you're on it. I know that I slow down when I'm on it, but I usually lose something. I also usually get very close to not losing any weight towards the end, but regardless of whether or not I lose any, I will stick this out until 3 days after I run out of drops, or day 43, whichever comes first. I'm a very determined person. I feel like the more I say that, the more accountable I am holding myself.
After HCG-
As you should know, I am not allowed starches or sugars for 2-3 weeks after I get off the VLCD. This round, I am going to go without starches and sugars until Thanksgiving, which is just over 2 weeks.
I want to reach 170 before January 4th. I know you all know that, but I want it BAD. The easiest time for me to lose weight will be during those 2 weeks without starches and sugars. I'm going to start working out, which is something I can't do while I'm only consuming 500 calories. In order to make absolute certain that I am consuming ZERO starches and ZERO sugars during this time, I'm trying to find an all liquid/mostly liquid diet to go on. I'm seriously considering Slim Fast, or just drinking protein shakes and taking vitamins. really think it could work, and I think as long as I'm taking vitamins, I should be fine. It would also help me keep away from triggers. If I were to ever do that, this would be the time. I am not tied down with addictions to food right now. In fact, I rarely eat anything anymore. I know... tisk, tisk. I make sure I eat something every day, but I don't eat an apple, or a pickle, or something between meals, and I frequently only eat one "meal" a day (which usually consists of a piece of meat with a tablespoon of salsa).
When I start working out, I know that I'll need more protein, but I want to do that with as few calories as possible. I don't see a need for consuming a bunch of calories when I'm pretty sure that protein would suffice.
*****Disclaimer- I am ABSOLUTELY not a medical professional! I'm just kind of trying experiments with possible weight loss methods for myself, and attempting to do so in a reasonably healthy way. Please also note that the healthiness of HCG is constantly debated, to which my argument will always be that it is much more unhealthy to be 270lbs in your early 20s.*****
I apologize for the long blog, but I warned you that I have a lot to say.
Someone just asked me, "How ever did you do it?" He was talking about managing a Subway while being a full time student, but my answer is the same, regardless of what the question is referencing. "I wanted it very badly. I was very determined." Another friend of mine recently asked me a form of the same question. She is also trying to lose weight via HCG. She asked out I can so easily turn down my temptations.
There are two giant bowls of candy at my house right now from Halloween. I walk by them every time I go to my George Foreman. I look at it, and sometimes want a piece, but it isn't an option. For me, it's like seeing a commercial about chocolate. I can't have it. My mind is made up. I am fully committed to this. It helps that it's been so long since I ate a piece of chocolate, that my taste buds don't remember it. If I ate candy right now, it would probably taste so sweet that I'd be disgusted. When my mom makes dinner, and I can smell it, its, not like I don't like the smell. I do, but I don't want to eat it. It just wouldn't be worth it. I would have to start all over. I would have that taste back in my mouth, and it would be much harder to turn down the second time. What makes me so determined? I don't ever want to have to start over. I don't want to ever get back to 270... or even 201. The reasons I'm doing this are always at the front of my mind. Doing this isn't an option anymore. It's just something that has to be done, so in typical Brittni fashion, I'm just doing it. You can only really fail if you give up, and I won't give up, so I won't fail. :-)
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Now that the completely unnecessary pep talk is over, lets have some awesome news.
Today, I put on two different pairs of size 13 pants. They were by no means cute, but not horribly uncomfortable. I have no intentions of wearing them in public for a while, but a friend gave them to me for when I get to that point. At first, I didn't think they would ever fit over my bum... it's HUGE... but one pair covered my whole bum, and the other just the top of my bumcrack showed. It's not like I would say that "I wear a size 13," but I can, and will acknowledge the fact that I am incredibly close to using odd numbers for my pant size, instead of the even numbers used for plus sized clothes.
I am happy.
Tuesday, November 1, 2011
196.0
I'm getting to the end of this, so slow is expected.
I work a lot of hours today, so it will be easy to chug a bunch of water, but I have to go to Walmart and get a new case.
I work a lot of hours today, so it will be easy to chug a bunch of water, but I have to go to Walmart and get a new case.
Monday, October 31, 2011
196.0
Woot Woot!!!!
I'm eating a normal HCG amount today. I want to see if I can keep losing weight without doing steak days. For a while I wasn't losing weight, so I kind of just want to see if this works.
I'm down to the "first to put on, last to come off" weight, which means the rest of this journey is going to be a lot harder than the first part of it. I'm okay with that.
I'm eating a normal HCG amount today. I want to see if I can keep losing weight without doing steak days. For a while I wasn't losing weight, so I kind of just want to see if this works.
I'm down to the "first to put on, last to come off" weight, which means the rest of this journey is going to be a lot harder than the first part of it. I'm okay with that.
Sunday, October 30, 2011
197.6- Day 31
I have mastered the art of black coffee---- with a little bit of saccharin sweetener in it. Actually, the first cup has 3 packets or so of sweetener, and I don't add any more, I just get down to a fourth of a cup or so, then fill it back up. It's wonderful. I have this thick porcelain coffee cup (it's about the size of two cups) that I've had forever, but never get to use. I'm using it now.
I've also got 8 bottles of water on my desk, and a pitcher of tea beside me. I'm going on the "stay hydrated" philosophy today... whatever liquid I can put in. :-) I highly doubt I'll get through all 8 bottles, but I'll probably get through the whole pitcher of tea.
So the steak day was yesterday, and obviously, it worked. I may do a steak day every day for the rest of this. I've got 3 more steaks cooked up in the fridge anyway, might as well use them.
I used to do "how I'm feeling" updates on here, for anyone who is thinking about doing HCG, and I haven't done those in a while, so I'll update you. My body is not tired. I used to get light headed sometimes, usually first thing in the morning, or when I stood too long in the shower, but I haven't had that problem since I started making an effort to drink more water. For a while, I was falling asleep faster, but lately, I'm back to lying in bed for a while before falling asleep. That was a problem before HCG that I thought HCG had fixed. I have an app on my phone that plays lullabies for a set time. I used to have it set to 20 minutes, and I always passed out before it ran out of time. I had to set it to 45 minutes the other day. I usually try to do without it, because I don't like relying on it, but I always end up turning it on. My energy level is average, except my motivation is pretty high, so I love the idea of going to go work out, but I can't. Part of that might be the coffee. :-)
Adding today's measurements: It's been a while since I've done measurements on here... maybe that's to blame for the shrinkage.
Bust: 41.5- 2 inches smaller
Arms: 14.25- .25 inches smaller
Waist: 38.5- 4.5 inches smaller???
Bum: 49.5- 2 inches smaller
Thigh: 29.5- Same
I've also got 8 bottles of water on my desk, and a pitcher of tea beside me. I'm going on the "stay hydrated" philosophy today... whatever liquid I can put in. :-) I highly doubt I'll get through all 8 bottles, but I'll probably get through the whole pitcher of tea.
So the steak day was yesterday, and obviously, it worked. I may do a steak day every day for the rest of this. I've got 3 more steaks cooked up in the fridge anyway, might as well use them.
I used to do "how I'm feeling" updates on here, for anyone who is thinking about doing HCG, and I haven't done those in a while, so I'll update you. My body is not tired. I used to get light headed sometimes, usually first thing in the morning, or when I stood too long in the shower, but I haven't had that problem since I started making an effort to drink more water. For a while, I was falling asleep faster, but lately, I'm back to lying in bed for a while before falling asleep. That was a problem before HCG that I thought HCG had fixed. I have an app on my phone that plays lullabies for a set time. I used to have it set to 20 minutes, and I always passed out before it ran out of time. I had to set it to 45 minutes the other day. I usually try to do without it, because I don't like relying on it, but I always end up turning it on. My energy level is average, except my motivation is pretty high, so I love the idea of going to go work out, but I can't. Part of that might be the coffee. :-)
Adding today's measurements: It's been a while since I've done measurements on here... maybe that's to blame for the shrinkage.
Bust: 41.5- 2 inches smaller
Arms: 14.25- .25 inches smaller
Waist: 38.5- 4.5 inches smaller???
Bum: 49.5- 2 inches smaller
Thigh: 29.5- Same
Saturday, October 29, 2011
199.6- Day 30
Yesterday morning, I was 199.8. I'm stalling again. Not sure why. I still have 10 days left. Usually, if I become immune, I get physically hungry. I am not hungry, so I'm going to stick this out until I run out of drops. I'll probably run out around day 36. I might make it to day 40, but I can't bring myself to buy more drops if I haven't lost any real weight.
I'm very tempted to stop doing HCG so I can work out, but I would feel like I was quitting. So, even if for no other reason than to prove I can, I'm going to stick this out at least until I run out of drops. I still can't work out, but staying on HCG is a great excuse not to work out. :-)
People tell me all the time that I'm getting so much smaller. I love it. I run into people I know, and they do a double take. It makes me feel like I can see all of my hard work. Honestly, looking at my body every day sometimes keeps me from being able to see the changes as they are made.
Oh yeah- I'm doing another steak day today. I'm at work, so I'll drink a bunch of water while I'm here, (and coffee... cause it's TOTALLY allowed) and follow up with a steak for dinner.
I'm very tempted to stop doing HCG so I can work out, but I would feel like I was quitting. So, even if for no other reason than to prove I can, I'm going to stick this out at least until I run out of drops. I still can't work out, but staying on HCG is a great excuse not to work out. :-)
People tell me all the time that I'm getting so much smaller. I love it. I run into people I know, and they do a double take. It makes me feel like I can see all of my hard work. Honestly, looking at my body every day sometimes keeps me from being able to see the changes as they are made.
Oh yeah- I'm doing another steak day today. I'm at work, so I'll drink a bunch of water while I'm here, (and coffee... cause it's TOTALLY allowed) and follow up with a steak for dinner.
Thursday, October 27, 2011
198.6
I'm very glad to know that the steak day actually helped, and didn't just help for a day. It seems to have put me back on track.
Wednesday, October 26, 2011
Yesterday, I was 201.2
So, I did a steak day. Too many days of not losing weight/gaining a little, when I know I'm not cheating at all. The only thing I could think of is that my lips are very chapped, so I've been using chapstick. It was a fancy kind that didn't have oil listed in the ingredients, but maybe it actually had oil in it. I'm very not allowed to have any types of oils. So, I've been trying to stay out of the wind, and stay hydrated more, and ditch the chapstick.
Today, after my steak day, I took a picture of the scale.
The first time I stepped on it, it said 199.2. The second time it said 199.6. I alway try to get a consistent reading before I write down any numbers. I stepped on it again and got 199.8. Two more times with 199.8, and that's what I took the picture. I could just write down 199.2 and move on, but if I wake up tomorrow, and it says 199.0, I wouldn't feel like I'd lost anything.
Also, I slept late today. A friend of mine from work mentioned that I may not be losing weight like I'm supposed to because of my lack of sleep. It's hard for me to sleep at night. Even when I get up at 6am, and go to bed at 10, I still lay there until 2 in the morning before passing out. So, last night, I stayed up until I felt tired at 4 or so, and then slep until 1. I needed that kind of sleep. I think between it, and the steak... it helped.
Today, after my steak day, I took a picture of the scale.
The first time I stepped on it, it said 199.2. The second time it said 199.6. I alway try to get a consistent reading before I write down any numbers. I stepped on it again and got 199.8. Two more times with 199.8, and that's what I took the picture. I could just write down 199.2 and move on, but if I wake up tomorrow, and it says 199.0, I wouldn't feel like I'd lost anything.
Also, I slept late today. A friend of mine from work mentioned that I may not be losing weight like I'm supposed to because of my lack of sleep. It's hard for me to sleep at night. Even when I get up at 6am, and go to bed at 10, I still lay there until 2 in the morning before passing out. So, last night, I stayed up until I felt tired at 4 or so, and then slep until 1. I needed that kind of sleep. I think between it, and the steak... it helped.
Monday, October 24, 2011
200.8
Though, I did step on the scale last night and saw 199.8 for the first time in forever. Took a picture of it too. :-)
Patience and hard work...
Patience and hard work...
Sunday, October 23, 2011
Saturday, October 22, 2011
201.2- Cause that's how it goes.
I didn't cheat. I don't know why I feel the need to declare that any time my weight looks incriminating.
Here's my theory- I've been working weird hours. Twice this week, I worked overnights, and didn't get off work until 7:00 in the morning. Because of this, my sleep hours have been jacked up, and I gain/lose time in my day because of the weird hours I've been sleeping. I had been falling asleep around 7 or 8 in the morning, and waking up around 2 or 3 in the afternoon. When I wake up in the afternoon, that is my "morning," and that is when I check my weight. Well, I got off work at 11:30 last night, and ate dinner at midnight or so. I went to bed around 3, and woke up and took my "morning weight" at 6:30. This didn't give my body time to process my dinner. I'm not worried or concerned about my weight. I'm not losing hope or patience. There are certain mile markers that sometimes take a little longer to cross. I always figured getting down below 200 would be one of those.
I'm drinking a crap ton of water today though. Beat that you stupid scale! :-)
Here's my theory- I've been working weird hours. Twice this week, I worked overnights, and didn't get off work until 7:00 in the morning. Because of this, my sleep hours have been jacked up, and I gain/lose time in my day because of the weird hours I've been sleeping. I had been falling asleep around 7 or 8 in the morning, and waking up around 2 or 3 in the afternoon. When I wake up in the afternoon, that is my "morning," and that is when I check my weight. Well, I got off work at 11:30 last night, and ate dinner at midnight or so. I went to bed around 3, and woke up and took my "morning weight" at 6:30. This didn't give my body time to process my dinner. I'm not worried or concerned about my weight. I'm not losing hope or patience. There are certain mile markers that sometimes take a little longer to cross. I always figured getting down below 200 would be one of those.
I'm drinking a crap ton of water today though. Beat that you stupid scale! :-)
Friday, October 21, 2011
200.0- Old Picture Time!!! I've always been "heavy set"
I didn't stand a chance of trying to put these in order, So I tried to label them accurately with my age... not trying to think about the weight I was in each picture... too much effort.
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| Around 13- 14 I think |
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| 13-14 Maybe |
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| Eddy was playing football in Farmington... so, at least 14 |
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| Uncle Jeff's Wedding- Judging by the fact that I let someone cut my hair- 13 |
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| Second year at JBU- 18 |
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| Softball, Sophomore year- 16 |
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| 14-16 |
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| 18 |
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| 13-15 ish? |
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| Dez's Junior Prom- 16 |
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| I worked at Dillons- 16 |
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| We hadn't had the Vette too long- I wanna say 14. Maybe 15. |
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| That was my favorite shirt sophomore year. 16 |
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| Eddy's Wedding- 17 years old |
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| Junior Prom- 16 |
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| Sophomore Softball- 16 |
Thursday, October 20, 2011
200.6
I want to scream every time I look at that number! I'm so excited!!!
I have a hard line putting a timeline on my weight as I grew up. There are certain mile markers that I can remember though. In the 7th grade, I had a pair of patched jeans (they were 'super cool' back then) that were a size 14. I outgrew them by the time I hit 8th grade. When I tried Advocare with my Nee Nee, we put them up somewhere, so I could see how much weight I'd lost. I never lost any.
They're probably still too small, but it'd be fun to try. They looked something like this:
Softball- Sophomore in high school, I was 230 ish there.
Eddy's Boot Camp Graduation- 2009 ish
Hunter was born- December 2009
I have a hard line putting a timeline on my weight as I grew up. There are certain mile markers that I can remember though. In the 7th grade, I had a pair of patched jeans (they were 'super cool' back then) that were a size 14. I outgrew them by the time I hit 8th grade. When I tried Advocare with my Nee Nee, we put them up somewhere, so I could see how much weight I'd lost. I never lost any.
They're probably still too small, but it'd be fun to try. They looked something like this:
Except, mine were cooler... with bigger patches, and more flair, and no pocket designs... cause I was cool like that. My favorite picture of me from that time period is of me in those jeans, with a grey long sleeved thermal shirt on that said "Rock!" in red letters. Mom, can we get that picture on here? That'd be pretty awesome!
THANKS TO MY MOMMY!!!! My mom sent me a bunch of fat pictures of me when I was fatter... Putting the pictures in some form of a collage below... in some type of chronological form.
Senior Prom 215lbs or so
After graduation, before college- 225 or so
Eddy's Boot Camp Graduation- 2009 ish 230-240
Eddy's Boot Camp Graduation- 2009 ish
Eddy's homecoming party, 2009 Summer 250ish
Hunter was born- December 2009Wednesday, October 19, 2011
201.6- Can YOU feel how close I am?!?!?!?!?!
I CAN!!!
It's freaking cold outside! When I got dressed for work tonight, I went to the winter side of my closet. I pulled out one of the long sleeved shirts that my mom got me when I was 16 or so. She bought me 5 or 6 in different colors. When I first got them, they stayed in the back of my closet. They are XLs, I believe. I never wore them, because they clung to my stomach. A few years later, layers became popular, and I started wearing them under T-shirts. I pulled out my black one, and reached for a shirt to put over it. I looked in the mirror at the long sleeved shirt over the tank top I was already wearing.
It fit! The shirt that once clung to my stomach so bad that I couldn't wear it, fits me! Honestly, I'm not sure if it's too big, or if it just has no shape. Shirts like this don't usually have a problem with shaping me, so I'm thinking I can call it too big. It's kind of baggy. I can't tell you how proud I am of myself.
Most women look back at when they were 16 and wish they could look like that again. I look back and know I look better now. Most women, after being married for a while, try on their wedding dress, and realize it doesn't fit anymore. By the time I got mine in, it was too big. I can't imagine what it would look like now... and, no. I'm not going to try it on to see. The only reason it's still in my closet is because MOM won't let me donate it.
I need to get a young picture up of me on here, so you can see. I was round. Even when I was 220lbs or so (which was probably ages 14-16 or so), my face looked bigger than it did when I was 270. Something about puberty, I'm sure, but my face slimmed up so much when I got to college. It used to be SO ROUND... so even when I wasn't huge, I felt like I was. I'll try to put some chubby face pictures up tomorrow.
It's freaking cold outside! When I got dressed for work tonight, I went to the winter side of my closet. I pulled out one of the long sleeved shirts that my mom got me when I was 16 or so. She bought me 5 or 6 in different colors. When I first got them, they stayed in the back of my closet. They are XLs, I believe. I never wore them, because they clung to my stomach. A few years later, layers became popular, and I started wearing them under T-shirts. I pulled out my black one, and reached for a shirt to put over it. I looked in the mirror at the long sleeved shirt over the tank top I was already wearing.
It fit! The shirt that once clung to my stomach so bad that I couldn't wear it, fits me! Honestly, I'm not sure if it's too big, or if it just has no shape. Shirts like this don't usually have a problem with shaping me, so I'm thinking I can call it too big. It's kind of baggy. I can't tell you how proud I am of myself.
Most women look back at when they were 16 and wish they could look like that again. I look back and know I look better now. Most women, after being married for a while, try on their wedding dress, and realize it doesn't fit anymore. By the time I got mine in, it was too big. I can't imagine what it would look like now... and, no. I'm not going to try it on to see. The only reason it's still in my closet is because MOM won't let me donate it.
I need to get a young picture up of me on here, so you can see. I was round. Even when I was 220lbs or so (which was probably ages 14-16 or so), my face looked bigger than it did when I was 270. Something about puberty, I'm sure, but my face slimmed up so much when I got to college. It used to be SO ROUND... so even when I wasn't huge, I felt like I was. I'll try to put some chubby face pictures up tomorrow.
Tuesday, October 18, 2011
203.2 again, but it's okay... I didn't do anything wrong.
When I read, I get completely lost in the book. I used to read all the time, especially my senior year of high school. I haven't read much since I started college. I haven't disappeared in a book, I mean. I started reading Twilight (pause for the applause to stop). I held off, because I am a huge Harry Potter fan, and I felt like a traitor. Harry Potter is over. There is nothing left for me to look forward to.... so I dove in. I started the first book Monday night, just before midnight. I finished it around 11 tonight. I'm a good chunk of the way through the second book now, and I read a line that I wanted to blog.
"It didn't feel like the pain had weakened over time, rather that I'd grown strong enough to bear it."
Life goes on. Edward left, but Bella still survives. She was a zombie for a while (believe me, I know that one), and sometimes, she still feels like a zombie, but life goes on.
I took the quote to relate to weight loss as well though. I still have my triggers- the smell of french fries, pizza, Arby's.... and it doesn't smell any less tempting for me. I just know that I don't need it. It isn't that I don't want it, but I want other things more. I want to be healthy.
In the past few months, almost half a year, I have may have appeared to be a very weak person. There were, and occasionally still are, times when I don't feel like I can hold myself together. The thing is, I know that I am strong. Sometimes I forget, but it's a truth that my Dad instilled in me years ago. I am strong enough to lose 100 pounds in a year. I am strong enough to hold out for the man who is perfect for me. I am strong enough to take care of myself, just in case he never shows.
What doesn't kill you makes you stronger. God, please make me as strong as You need me to be.
"It didn't feel like the pain had weakened over time, rather that I'd grown strong enough to bear it."
Life goes on. Edward left, but Bella still survives. She was a zombie for a while (believe me, I know that one), and sometimes, she still feels like a zombie, but life goes on.
I took the quote to relate to weight loss as well though. I still have my triggers- the smell of french fries, pizza, Arby's.... and it doesn't smell any less tempting for me. I just know that I don't need it. It isn't that I don't want it, but I want other things more. I want to be healthy.
In the past few months, almost half a year, I have may have appeared to be a very weak person. There were, and occasionally still are, times when I don't feel like I can hold myself together. The thing is, I know that I am strong. Sometimes I forget, but it's a truth that my Dad instilled in me years ago. I am strong enough to lose 100 pounds in a year. I am strong enough to hold out for the man who is perfect for me. I am strong enough to take care of myself, just in case he never shows.
What doesn't kill you makes you stronger. God, please make me as strong as You need me to be.
Monday, October 17, 2011
203.2
Back at work... with my 8 bottles of water on my desk. They seemed to work yesterday. I've been drinking more Diet Coke than I should, but I don't allow myself any until all my water is gone. :-)
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Sunday, October 16, 2011
205.4
Yesterday, I was still at 206.8... again. I was very not happy, and very aggravated. I know that my stall was probably due to feminine stuff, but still...
To jump start my metabolism back up, I drank water all day long yesterday. I know I'm supposed to do this anyway, but it's hard for me to remember to drink water. I started my day yesterday by putting 8 bottles of water on my desk. I planned on finishing them in the 12 hours I was here. I got almost all of them down, but couldn't finish my last one. I'm doing the same thing today. It's a good practice to get into, and as often as I work, it may be easier this way. I have them set up like a "to-do list" instead of in my bottom drawer being out of sight and out of mind.
Going to have to go get a new case of water before tomorrow night.
My work schedule is pretty weird this week, because I took on some extra hours. I worked 7 am to 7 pm yesterday and today. Tomorrow night, I come in at 7pm and work until 7am Tuesday morning. I do the same thing Tuesday night. I'm thinking that's 32 bottles of water in 4 days. I'm definitely going to have to go get more.
And yes, I'm fully aware I could drink tap water, but I just prefer the bottles... and I prefer Ozarka.
To jump start my metabolism back up, I drank water all day long yesterday. I know I'm supposed to do this anyway, but it's hard for me to remember to drink water. I started my day yesterday by putting 8 bottles of water on my desk. I planned on finishing them in the 12 hours I was here. I got almost all of them down, but couldn't finish my last one. I'm doing the same thing today. It's a good practice to get into, and as often as I work, it may be easier this way. I have them set up like a "to-do list" instead of in my bottom drawer being out of sight and out of mind.
Going to have to go get a new case of water before tomorrow night.
My work schedule is pretty weird this week, because I took on some extra hours. I worked 7 am to 7 pm yesterday and today. Tomorrow night, I come in at 7pm and work until 7am Tuesday morning. I do the same thing Tuesday night. I'm thinking that's 32 bottles of water in 4 days. I'm definitely going to have to go get more.
And yes, I'm fully aware I could drink tap water, but I just prefer the bottles... and I prefer Ozarka.
Friday, October 14, 2011
206.8
I'm kind of dragging right now. I'm not doing anything I shouldn't be, except maybe my diet coke. I like to have a diet coke once a day or so. As far as I can tell, that hasn't hurt me before. I'm not really supposed to have aspertame, but I can't see any negative effects of a small amount of it.
So, I'm being careful.... watching everything I put in my mouth... trying to drink a BUNCH of water.... all that jazz...
So, I'm being careful.... watching everything I put in my mouth... trying to drink a BUNCH of water.... all that jazz...
Thursday, October 13, 2011
Twice in One Day- Wow
First things first- If you have a hard time commenting on a blog, scroll way down, and follow my directions below. It took me hours to figure this out (and I got in a tiny bit of trouble at work, because I didn't get some stuff done, because I was doing this instead). I would love for the info to benefit someone else.
Now, I'd like to share some short-ish-term goals with you all.
I want to be down to 170lbs by January 4th, 2012. That would put me at a hundred pounds in a year. Here's the trick to this: if everything goes ABSOLUTELY AWESOMELY on the rest of this round of HCG, it will put my weight at 182 on November, 11. This in itself makes me smile. :-) I cannot go back on the diet again until after the new year. On the other side of that, it gives me 53 days to lose 12 more pounds. Totally possible, right? YES! I'll have to do it on my own. No HCG. Maybe I'll stay no starch/no sugar for a while. Thanksgiving and Christmas will be exceptions to that rule, but I have to learn healthy portion sizes. A tiny sample of all of the awesomeness that my family cooks, will satisfy my taste buds. I just have to get it in my head that there is no point in being so full that my pants are uncomfortable. A large part of my family is diabetic, so there are ALWAYS diabetic friendly dishes at family-get-togethers. I should befriend those dishes. Might make life easier.
I want to be healthy. That was the whole purpose of this. It wasn't about me getting thin. I want to be healthy. I'm really not supposed to work out much on this diet, but I need to start doing some exercises. I am very non-limber. My heart rate still sky-rockets when I exert myself. I went to campus the other day and lost my breath walking from my truck to the Treasurer's Office. I want that to stop... BEFORE I go back to school. Totally possible, right? YES AGAIN! I'm going to start "speed walking" or "brisk walking" or whatever it is. I don't ever do that. I run until I can't breathe, and walk until I catch my breath, and repeat. I can't do that on HCG. There's a good chance I'd pass out. Lady bug could use the exercise too. She's getting old.
I haven't been to the bar in almost two weeks. I just don't want to go. I don't want to be one of those people. There's a really long story about what specifically made me leave the bar, but it isn't important. P.S. Anyone know where to play free poker other than a bar? I love that game, but I shouldn't play more than once a week or so.
For those of you who don't know, I'm a very, very, very determined person. When I want something, I work hard for it. (This probably has something to do with why I'm giving the UofA over half my paycheck every two weeks so I can go back to school in January.) Failure isn't an option for me. My dad told me the other day, "You have to go back to school to prove everyone wrong." I asked him who there was to prove wrong, because as far as I know, everyone who knows me well enough to care, knows that I will go back to school. Occasionally, people ask me if I'm still planning on going back. I'm not "planning on it." I'm friggin going to do it. Quitting isn't an option for me. I started it. I have to finish. I wish my brother were that way.
So... here's the only real full body picture I have of me right now. I wish I had some older ones, but when I was at my biggest, I tried not to let people take full body pictures of me. They were lucky to get a head shot. If any of you can find a really fat full body picture of me, let me know. It'd be great for comparison. At some point, I'll take a new picture of me in my old clothes. It will be funny. I put on another shirt today that I used to not wear because it was too small, and now I can't wear because it's way too big.
I'm really not a fan of my hair or facial expression in this picture, but that isn't the point. (I've mastered the "stand like this so you look kind of skinny-er" pose.)
Leaving comments: I'd screenshot, but apparently, Blogspot isn't a fan.
Now, I'd like to share some short-ish-term goals with you all.
I want to be down to 170lbs by January 4th, 2012. That would put me at a hundred pounds in a year. Here's the trick to this: if everything goes ABSOLUTELY AWESOMELY on the rest of this round of HCG, it will put my weight at 182 on November, 11. This in itself makes me smile. :-) I cannot go back on the diet again until after the new year. On the other side of that, it gives me 53 days to lose 12 more pounds. Totally possible, right? YES! I'll have to do it on my own. No HCG. Maybe I'll stay no starch/no sugar for a while. Thanksgiving and Christmas will be exceptions to that rule, but I have to learn healthy portion sizes. A tiny sample of all of the awesomeness that my family cooks, will satisfy my taste buds. I just have to get it in my head that there is no point in being so full that my pants are uncomfortable. A large part of my family is diabetic, so there are ALWAYS diabetic friendly dishes at family-get-togethers. I should befriend those dishes. Might make life easier.
I want to be healthy. That was the whole purpose of this. It wasn't about me getting thin. I want to be healthy. I'm really not supposed to work out much on this diet, but I need to start doing some exercises. I am very non-limber. My heart rate still sky-rockets when I exert myself. I went to campus the other day and lost my breath walking from my truck to the Treasurer's Office. I want that to stop... BEFORE I go back to school. Totally possible, right? YES AGAIN! I'm going to start "speed walking" or "brisk walking" or whatever it is. I don't ever do that. I run until I can't breathe, and walk until I catch my breath, and repeat. I can't do that on HCG. There's a good chance I'd pass out. Lady bug could use the exercise too. She's getting old.
I haven't been to the bar in almost two weeks. I just don't want to go. I don't want to be one of those people. There's a really long story about what specifically made me leave the bar, but it isn't important. P.S. Anyone know where to play free poker other than a bar? I love that game, but I shouldn't play more than once a week or so.
For those of you who don't know, I'm a very, very, very determined person. When I want something, I work hard for it. (This probably has something to do with why I'm giving the UofA over half my paycheck every two weeks so I can go back to school in January.) Failure isn't an option for me. My dad told me the other day, "You have to go back to school to prove everyone wrong." I asked him who there was to prove wrong, because as far as I know, everyone who knows me well enough to care, knows that I will go back to school. Occasionally, people ask me if I'm still planning on going back. I'm not "planning on it." I'm friggin going to do it. Quitting isn't an option for me. I started it. I have to finish. I wish my brother were that way.
So... here's the only real full body picture I have of me right now. I wish I had some older ones, but when I was at my biggest, I tried not to let people take full body pictures of me. They were lucky to get a head shot. If any of you can find a really fat full body picture of me, let me know. It'd be great for comparison. At some point, I'll take a new picture of me in my old clothes. It will be funny. I put on another shirt today that I used to not wear because it was too small, and now I can't wear because it's way too big.
Leaving comments: I'd screenshot, but apparently, Blogspot isn't a fan.
- Go to the tools button on your internet page. It looks like a gear. Click Internet Options. Go to the Privacy tab in Internet Options. Change your settings to low. This should still block the cookies that your computer needs to block, but it allows the ones that allow us to comment. Click Apply. Click OK. Close out your internet completely, and open it back up.
- When you log back into Blogspot, uncheck the "leave me signed in" or "remember me" or whatever it says. For whatever reason, this jacks up the memory. (Seriously, Blogspot, if we can't use the box, why put it there?)
Dieting is Cheaper than Eating
Day 13- 207.8- Same as day 12
Day 14- 206.8- That's today.
I'm ragging... not that you care, but it affects my weight change. I am continuing the drops because I have the mentality of why mess with something that works.
My mind is on money right now, not dieting, although it isn't interferring with my dieting. I make good money, but the majority of it goes to the U of A, so I don't really see it.
On a side note, I probably need to eat more. I keep forgetting to eat. I'm going to go make lunch before I have to go to work.
Day 14- 206.8- That's today.
I'm ragging... not that you care, but it affects my weight change. I am continuing the drops because I have the mentality of why mess with something that works.
My mind is on money right now, not dieting, although it isn't interferring with my dieting. I make good money, but the majority of it goes to the U of A, so I don't really see it.
On a side note, I probably need to eat more. I keep forgetting to eat. I'm going to go make lunch before I have to go to work.
Tuesday, October 11, 2011
207.8 Day... umm... 12
That's my weight as of now.
Something I may try different this round:
Officially, when you start your period, and you are on the diet, you are supposed to continue the 500 calorie diet, without taking the drops. I have always taken the drops anyway, because I have a hard time convincing myself that I can get away with only eating 500 calories without the drops. Supposedly, your body is creating HCG while you are on your period, so there is no need to take them.
I may try to make it through my period without the drops. If I start feeling hungry, I'll probably start back up on them, because feeling hungry isn't part of this diet. In the past, I have always taken them, and continued to lose weight like normal. However, I have always stopped losing weight a day or two earlier than I am supposed to.
I have not decided whether I'm going to stop taking them or not. At this point, I'm leaning towards taking them. The personal comfort I get from taking the drops relieves me from the worry that I'm hurting my body, and when you don't take the drops on your period, you tend to lose much less weight, if any. I think my week of ragging and losing weight is worth the two days that I may or may not lose weight at the end of my diet because I became immune to the drops a little early. I guess that's decision made.
(5-7 lbs I'll lose if I keep taking my drops during my period) > (2-3 lbs I may not lose at the end of my diet if I take the drops all the way through + the worry that I'm hurting my body unnecessarily)
Different note- When I get off work on Sundays, I go to Skye's house so she can measure me. I do not guarantee the accuracy of these measurements, although we try very hard to make sure we are measuring in the exact same spot. I wear the same pants every time, and we measure at the top of the tear. I have a mole on my arm that use as a landmark for where to measure. Rachel told me to measure myself, so we do.
So, Sunday 10/9:
Thigh- 29.5- half an inch smaller than last week
Bum- 51.5- one inch smaller
Waist- 43- half an inch bigger- could be due to bloating... apparently that happens when you're a girl
Bust- 43.5- EXACTLY THE SAME :-) there isn't much room to lose anything there.
Arms 14.5- half an inch smaller
10/10 Day 11- 208.6
10/11 Day 12- 207.8
Something I may try different this round:
Officially, when you start your period, and you are on the diet, you are supposed to continue the 500 calorie diet, without taking the drops. I have always taken the drops anyway, because I have a hard time convincing myself that I can get away with only eating 500 calories without the drops. Supposedly, your body is creating HCG while you are on your period, so there is no need to take them.
I may try to make it through my period without the drops. If I start feeling hungry, I'll probably start back up on them, because feeling hungry isn't part of this diet. In the past, I have always taken them, and continued to lose weight like normal. However, I have always stopped losing weight a day or two earlier than I am supposed to.
I have not decided whether I'm going to stop taking them or not. At this point, I'm leaning towards taking them. The personal comfort I get from taking the drops relieves me from the worry that I'm hurting my body, and when you don't take the drops on your period, you tend to lose much less weight, if any. I think my week of ragging and losing weight is worth the two days that I may or may not lose weight at the end of my diet because I became immune to the drops a little early. I guess that's decision made.
(5-7 lbs I'll lose if I keep taking my drops during my period) > (2-3 lbs I may not lose at the end of my diet if I take the drops all the way through + the worry that I'm hurting my body unnecessarily)
Different note- When I get off work on Sundays, I go to Skye's house so she can measure me. I do not guarantee the accuracy of these measurements, although we try very hard to make sure we are measuring in the exact same spot. I wear the same pants every time, and we measure at the top of the tear. I have a mole on my arm that use as a landmark for where to measure. Rachel told me to measure myself, so we do.
So, Sunday 10/9:
Thigh- 29.5- half an inch smaller than last week
Bum- 51.5- one inch smaller
Waist- 43- half an inch bigger- could be due to bloating... apparently that happens when you're a girl
Bust- 43.5- EXACTLY THE SAME :-) there isn't much room to lose anything there.
Arms 14.5- half an inch smaller
10/10 Day 11- 208.6
10/11 Day 12- 207.8
Sunday, October 9, 2011
I just realized there wasn't a title here. Now there is.
So, I've decided to get back to the "blogging" part of this blog, and not just record keeping, but only shortly, because there are some things I have to finish before I leave work.
For a while, I didn't post particularly personal stuff on this blog, because it was made for my weight loss. Guess what. Weight loss is very personal. A lot of my personal life contributes to my weight loss, or lack thereof.
I believe I mentioned the whole almost getting married/calling off my wedding thing. What I didn't mention is how hard it was on me getting used to being a single person again. Maybe you understand this. Maybe you don't, and this is sort of hard for me to admit out loud (because sometimes writing is more out loud than speaking). When I called off my wedding, my weight loss was put on hold. Like, a major hold... you know, the kind a bank puts on checks from out of the country.
I gave every part of me to my relationship with Jerimiah. So much so, that there was nothing left for me. I woke up every morning and went to work for him. It wasn't about me finishing school, or moving up in my work. It was about taking care of us. My life revolved around the two of us. He did not share the same desire to take care of our "family". It was a hard realization for me when I hit my breaking point. He is a good guy, but he has a lot of growing up to do, and I can't be his mother.
I asked him repeatedly to get a job, then begged him for even longer. One day I told him he had two weeks to get a job, or I was calling off the wedding. I had no intentions of leaving him. After all, he was my everything. I just wasn't ready to marry someone under the circumstances we were in. The day after I gave him a deadline, he slept until afternoon. I was heartbroken, and devastated. I was working as much as I possibly could, and he couldn't even get out of bed to hold us together. That's when I decided that not only was he not ready to get married, but he wasn't ready to be in a relationship. I gave him his two weeks, or tried to. A week and a half in, he asked if I wanted to marry him still. He asked me in a text, and I ended up calling him to tell him, "no."
Long story short, it broke my heart, and I drank often and in large quantities to try to fill the cracks. I drank back on every pound from the last round of HCG I did. I became a drone. I had no idea where I was in life, or what I was doing with it. Everything I had planned fell through. Everything I had put so much effort into... the one person that I thought I could rely on to take care of me... Sometimes, I still have a hard time wrapping my mind about how much time and effort I wasted. I had to make new plans, and new, revamped goals. Which I have done, and am continuing to do. My diet is my stabilizer.
I feel better. I feel fresh. I have ups and downs all the time, but I'm good today.
My mom and I have this saying about HCG. "It's the one thing we have control over."
The thing about it is, right now, I feel like I'm in control of everything. I have a million options out there for me. A million different opportunities to make an imprint in the world, and I sure as hell don't need a man to help me do it.
This diet is step one. I have to change myself before I can change the world.
As of today: 211 lbs.
For a while, I didn't post particularly personal stuff on this blog, because it was made for my weight loss. Guess what. Weight loss is very personal. A lot of my personal life contributes to my weight loss, or lack thereof.
I believe I mentioned the whole almost getting married/calling off my wedding thing. What I didn't mention is how hard it was on me getting used to being a single person again. Maybe you understand this. Maybe you don't, and this is sort of hard for me to admit out loud (because sometimes writing is more out loud than speaking). When I called off my wedding, my weight loss was put on hold. Like, a major hold... you know, the kind a bank puts on checks from out of the country.
I gave every part of me to my relationship with Jerimiah. So much so, that there was nothing left for me. I woke up every morning and went to work for him. It wasn't about me finishing school, or moving up in my work. It was about taking care of us. My life revolved around the two of us. He did not share the same desire to take care of our "family". It was a hard realization for me when I hit my breaking point. He is a good guy, but he has a lot of growing up to do, and I can't be his mother.
I asked him repeatedly to get a job, then begged him for even longer. One day I told him he had two weeks to get a job, or I was calling off the wedding. I had no intentions of leaving him. After all, he was my everything. I just wasn't ready to marry someone under the circumstances we were in. The day after I gave him a deadline, he slept until afternoon. I was heartbroken, and devastated. I was working as much as I possibly could, and he couldn't even get out of bed to hold us together. That's when I decided that not only was he not ready to get married, but he wasn't ready to be in a relationship. I gave him his two weeks, or tried to. A week and a half in, he asked if I wanted to marry him still. He asked me in a text, and I ended up calling him to tell him, "no."
Long story short, it broke my heart, and I drank often and in large quantities to try to fill the cracks. I drank back on every pound from the last round of HCG I did. I became a drone. I had no idea where I was in life, or what I was doing with it. Everything I had planned fell through. Everything I had put so much effort into... the one person that I thought I could rely on to take care of me... Sometimes, I still have a hard time wrapping my mind about how much time and effort I wasted. I had to make new plans, and new, revamped goals. Which I have done, and am continuing to do. My diet is my stabilizer.
I feel better. I feel fresh. I have ups and downs all the time, but I'm good today.
My mom and I have this saying about HCG. "It's the one thing we have control over."
The thing about it is, right now, I feel like I'm in control of everything. I have a million options out there for me. A million different opportunities to make an imprint in the world, and I sure as hell don't need a man to help me do it.
This diet is step one. I have to change myself before I can change the world.
As of today: 211 lbs.
Saturday, October 8, 2011
Recap Days 4-9
Just a recap of my weight throughout this week.
10/3- Day 4- 222.8
10/4- Day 5- 222.2
10/5- Day 6- 219.4
10/6- Day 7- 216.8
10/7- Day 8- 213.8
10/8- Day 9- 212.0
So- Makin some serious progress.
I really really really hate fish.
10/3- Day 4- 222.8
10/4- Day 5- 222.2
10/5- Day 6- 219.4
10/6- Day 7- 216.8
10/7- Day 8- 213.8
10/8- Day 9- 212.0
So- Makin some serious progress.
I really really really hate fish.
Friday, October 7, 2011
Monday, October 3, 2011
Day 4 again, again, again... nevermind
Alrighty,
So I've been gorging all weekend, (which grosses me out now, but I think I probably used to eat like that all the time) and my official starting weight on this round is 222.8. That's after gorging for three days. I fluctuated around 215 before gorging, but I didn't weigh myself on day 1. I'm not sure why, but I didn't.
Official measurements for the start of this round. Taken yesterday, day 3-
Thigh- 30"
Bum- 52.5" (I think that's always going to be huge)
Waist- 42.5"
Breasts- 43.5"
Arm- 15"
And now, I'm going to go back to the very original measurements and see if there's really that much difference.
So I've been gorging all weekend, (which grosses me out now, but I think I probably used to eat like that all the time) and my official starting weight on this round is 222.8. That's after gorging for three days. I fluctuated around 215 before gorging, but I didn't weigh myself on day 1. I'm not sure why, but I didn't.
Official measurements for the start of this round. Taken yesterday, day 3-
Thigh- 30"
Bum- 52.5" (I think that's always going to be huge)
Waist- 42.5"
Breasts- 43.5"
Arm- 15"
And now, I'm going to go back to the very original measurements and see if there's really that much difference.
Thursday, September 1, 2011
Pretty Much the Same
I really want to just go ahead and start back up on HCG, but my birthday is coming up soon, and I'm not crazy enough to try to not eat cake on my birthday. I won't set myself up for failure. So... Gorging on 9/19 and 9/20 (and maybe 21) and I'll start back up then. I've been doing better. I'm quite a bit stronger mentally, which is where I failed on my last round. I am right around 210 pretty steadily, and I'm excited again about getting to <200. I can feel how close I am.
Also- my 1 year anniversary with HCG will be on January 4th, and I'm hoping to have a huge mile marker by then. I don't think it's unrealistic to want to be at 170 by then. That's 100 pounds in 1 year. The awesomeness of that makes me wanna cry happy tears. :-)
Also- my 1 year anniversary with HCG will be on January 4th, and I'm hoping to have a huge mile marker by then. I don't think it's unrealistic to want to be at 170 by then. That's 100 pounds in 1 year. The awesomeness of that makes me wanna cry happy tears. :-)
Saturday, July 23, 2011
How it's going
I'm managing my weight well... right around 204... pretty consistent. Nothing useful to say, just thought I'd let you know I hadn't forgotten about you, or started putting back on weight.
Tuesday, July 5, 2011
In the middle of an all night shift
I have been at work since 1200 yesterday and it is now almost 0600. This was a 19 hour shift (except that for the first time EVER, I had to clock out for a "lunch" so H.R. doesn't flip out). On my "lunch" I went to Wal Mart to browse. Sometimes when I'm in public places, I look at larger people and wonder if I was that big... if I am that big. See, it's hard for me to comprehend what I look like now, because I still look the same to me. I just have no concept of my size, except that all my clothes are too big.
So here's the story. I got to the checkout, and there was a woman in front of me, who I figured to have weighed about 300 lbs. I think she was bigger than I was at my biggest, but probably not too much. I then looked at the cute little chunky girl behind the counter. She's about my height, if not a little shorter. I looked at her size, and thought to myself, "I'd be happy at that size." She had a little bit of plump, but she was obviously petite and healthy. Now, for the next part, keep in mind it was around 0200. I looked at the girl and said, "Do you mind if I ask you an inappropriate question?" She said, "Shoot!" I asked her how much she weighed and she said right at 200. I almost crapped myself. I smiled and told her what had been going on in my head. She seemed pretty flattered.
I know that I am still not at a healthy weight, but I am more comfortable with my appearance than I have ever been, and that's pretty durn satisfying.
So here's the story. I got to the checkout, and there was a woman in front of me, who I figured to have weighed about 300 lbs. I think she was bigger than I was at my biggest, but probably not too much. I then looked at the cute little chunky girl behind the counter. She's about my height, if not a little shorter. I looked at her size, and thought to myself, "I'd be happy at that size." She had a little bit of plump, but she was obviously petite and healthy. Now, for the next part, keep in mind it was around 0200. I looked at the girl and said, "Do you mind if I ask you an inappropriate question?" She said, "Shoot!" I asked her how much she weighed and she said right at 200. I almost crapped myself. I smiled and told her what had been going on in my head. She seemed pretty flattered.
I know that I am still not at a healthy weight, but I am more comfortable with my appearance than I have ever been, and that's pretty durn satisfying.
Monday, July 4, 2011
SO
I woke up today- 201lbs. Not getting back on HCG, but I am going to watch my weight very closely. I really think I can lose some on my own, and in a weird way, I think it may be easier for me to lose it when I'm off HCG. I'll let you know how this works.
Sunday, July 3, 2011
7/3/11- Day ?
I am not completing this round of HCG. It has been a week, and I'm at 205. This is not because the diet doesn't work. It's because I haven't been doing it right.
Early this week, I ate two genuine Sonic meals, and have not recovered from that. This is the first round that I have actually cheated, and I guess now I've seen what happens when you do. My heart is not in this round. I am 6 pounds away from being under 200 for the first time in who knows how long. I can give you a very long list of my excuses- but I'm not going to. The short version- I feel entirely too emotionally unstable to do this like it's supposed to be done, so I'm not doing it at all.
I was supposed to get married on Saturday- and I'm not... and I'm not handling the reality of how much time I have wasted very well.
I'll let you know when I'm up to it again.
Early this week, I ate two genuine Sonic meals, and have not recovered from that. This is the first round that I have actually cheated, and I guess now I've seen what happens when you do. My heart is not in this round. I am 6 pounds away from being under 200 for the first time in who knows how long. I can give you a very long list of my excuses- but I'm not going to. The short version- I feel entirely too emotionally unstable to do this like it's supposed to be done, so I'm not doing it at all.
I was supposed to get married on Saturday- and I'm not... and I'm not handling the reality of how much time I have wasted very well.
I'll let you know when I'm up to it again.
Saturday, June 25, 2011
Day 8 again again
Got up to 216 in my binge days. I'm at 206 this morning. Doing everything right. Running out of comments to make, but want to make sure my weight is somewhat frequently recorded. I did all 3 binge days this round, where I usually just do 2. Usually I get pretty bad hunger pangs on my 3rd day, and that did not happen this round. I wonder if there is a correlation.
Saturday, June 18, 2011
Day 1
I believe I was 211 this morning, but not sure. I'm going to head to GNC to get my drops in a few minutes. I wasn't sure if I was going to start on this today or not, but I might as well. This is something I know I can complete, and I have accomplished so much through already. There is absolutely no reason to stop now!
Sunday, June 5, 2011
June 20th
On June 20th, I can start my 3rd round of HCG. That is an 8 week interval between rounds of taking HCG. I'm currently sitting right at 210. On my next round of HCG, I'm going back to taking to formula I got from GNC. It's a little bit more pricey, but I have some doubts about the kind I got offline last time. I also have to invest in a digital scale before I start back up. The non-digital scales don't have quite the same effect. At one point in the history of this blog, I weighed 270 pounds- may that never happen again.
Monday, April 25, 2011
Day 1. 204
So I should have told you guys this, but I was busy at work this weekend. I stopped taking HCG because it seemed to have lost its effect. (Again, I believe I become immune early.)
So I did 2 days of VLCD and now am back on a no starch or sugar.
Ate an omlete.
Doing well.
Enjoying Diet Coke.
So I did 2 days of VLCD and now am back on a no starch or sugar.
Ate an omlete.
Doing well.
Enjoying Diet Coke.
Friday, April 22, 2011
Day 35---- Again
So for those of you who keep up, you might remember that last round of HCG, I stalled out earlier than I should of and had to stop early. I think I'm there. It's been 5 days since my last post, and I have gained 2 pounds, then lost 3. I've been having problems with my shoulders (stress related?) and put some Icy Hot on them the other day. Icy Hot is just a bunch of oil, and the day after I used it, I gained 2 pounds. I should be losing weight faster than this, but I think I become immune faster than I should.
Today- 205. I was really upset about this, then my mom reminded me that I am two-oh-something. I can't let the little sad parts diminish the huge success I've had.
I can't tell you how many people have said to me, "you were not 270 pounds!" Actually... yeah... I get into full blown arguments about it. I'm glad I carried my weight well, but I'm happier that it's going... going... gone.
Today- 205. I was really upset about this, then my mom reminded me that I am two-oh-something. I can't let the little sad parts diminish the huge success I've had.
I can't tell you how many people have said to me, "you were not 270 pounds!" Actually... yeah... I get into full blown arguments about it. I'm glad I carried my weight well, but I'm happier that it's going... going... gone.
Sunday, April 17, 2011
Saturday, April 16, 2011
Day 29- 207
Getting towards the end again. 13 days of the very low calorie diet left. 11 days of HCG drops left. I REALLY REALLY want to lose the last 7 pounds. I can't believe how close I am.
I tried on a pair of jeans at WalMart last night. They were 16 misses. I could button them, but the length from the crotch to the waist did not cover my bum. Kind of depressing, but I guess I'm always gonna have that problem. When I was 15- a lady at Old Navy told me to buy a pair bigger than I needed so my buttcrack wouldn't hang out.
Rachel say's the first fat to put on is the last to go. It's hard for me to think of the shape of my bum as "the first fat put on."
The wonderful internet says I'm still "morbidly obese" at a BMI of 35.5
I tried on a pair of jeans at WalMart last night. They were 16 misses. I could button them, but the length from the crotch to the waist did not cover my bum. Kind of depressing, but I guess I'm always gonna have that problem. When I was 15- a lady at Old Navy told me to buy a pair bigger than I needed so my buttcrack wouldn't hang out.
Rachel say's the first fat to put on is the last to go. It's hard for me to think of the shape of my bum as "the first fat put on."
The wonderful internet says I'm still "morbidly obese" at a BMI of 35.5
Saturday, April 9, 2011
Day 22 again
213. I guess I am getting to the part where I don't lose as much as I used to (as fast as I used to). I think that means there isn't so much to lose. I was kind of hoping I'd be below 210 by now, but I'm hanging in there. I want you all to know that I HAVE NOT cheated. I haven't done anything to cause my weight loss to slow (unless I didn't take enough time off the HCG, but I took the suggested amount of time off). I also started my period, so that could have a role in this. (Keithan- don't know if you plan on reading this, but if so- Sorry about the girl talk, but it's kind of necessary when it affects a change in weight loss.)
For the past week or so, I've only lost a pound every two days... but it's a steady pound every two days. I'm not thrilled about that, but it's still more than I could expect to lose on most diets, and it's still working, just at a slower rate. I probably should have expected this, but I didn't. Even if it's permanent, I'm sticking with this. I still have about 20 days left and that's a solid 10 more pounds (except that 6 of those days I'll be on my period and not lose so much).
It's easy to get down about not losing what you expect to... but that's what my ticker is for. I was up to two hundred and seventy pounds at one point. I have lost a total of 57 pounds. That's a major accomplishment- no matter what... and I'm still not done.
Slow and steady wins the race.
For the past week or so, I've only lost a pound every two days... but it's a steady pound every two days. I'm not thrilled about that, but it's still more than I could expect to lose on most diets, and it's still working, just at a slower rate. I probably should have expected this, but I didn't. Even if it's permanent, I'm sticking with this. I still have about 20 days left and that's a solid 10 more pounds (except that 6 of those days I'll be on my period and not lose so much).
It's easy to get down about not losing what you expect to... but that's what my ticker is for. I was up to two hundred and seventy pounds at one point. I have lost a total of 57 pounds. That's a major accomplishment- no matter what... and I'm still not done.
Slow and steady wins the race.
Sunday, April 3, 2011
Day... er... 16?
216. Getting freaky close to under 200. Of course, I'm gonna be so stoked about 209 that I'll probably cry. Of course, there is something about every 10lb mark that is incredibly exciting.
P.S. The scale is in the middle of my ticker. Kinda awesome.
P.S. The scale is in the middle of my ticker. Kinda awesome.
Sunday, March 27, 2011
Day 9...
I had a Subway salad for dinner last night... I happen to know that the chicken strips weight no more than 2.75oz after being cooked, so that's within my range. No cheese. 3 slices each of tomato, cucumbers, bell peppers and banana peppers, salt, pepper, and oregano. Shiz-NIT! Twas awesome. Still lost my weight. 221 lbs.
Saturday, March 26, 2011
Day 8 again
So I'm down to 223. I moved out this week and had to go back to my not-so-digital scale, which just means I won't get a decimal readout. Freakin sweet though- 3 pounds away from 220. Then back into the teens. I'm excited. Once I hit 199, I have to stop losing weight for a while. I have to order my wedding dress soon, and I can't do that with a continuously fluctuating weight. We'll see how it goes.
Sunday, March 20, 2011
Day 2- again
This whole gorge thing isn't for me. I felt so sick last night, and I really didn't "gorge that much" I just kind of grazed on Pizza throughout the day and had a few cookies when I got home. I also drank real coke yesterday instead of Diet Coke, and it gave me a headache. So I'm back to diet coke today, and up to 236.8 pounds this morning. Ew. That's 10 pounds above my lowest point, but it'll be off in the next couple of days. Weight that I put on like that comes right back off when the actual dieting part kicks in. Oh, and I'm not changing my ticker, cause that's depressing.
Saturday, March 19, 2011
Day 1- Again
Day 1 is gorge day. So I'm back on the drops and back on the food. FYI- I still haven't eaten anything today. I'll get started on that soon. I've heard that gorge days aren't as important after the first round. I'm also taking a different type of the drops. My old ones were 3 times daily, 10 drops at a time. These are 6 drops at a time, 6 times daily. Ummm.... yeah... probably gonna end up doing 12 drops 3 times. I'm at a desk all day today though, so I might actually follow through with the 6 times today and tomorrow. Starting weight for this round 232.6.
Saturday, March 5, 2011
So
I'm back on a normal diet... for 3 more weeks before I can start HCG again. I'm being cautious, but eating normal food. Definitely NOT gaining weight back- and checking every day
P.S.- There's a ring on my finger.
P.S.- There's a ring on my finger.
Sunday, February 20, 2011
Day 10 of Phase 3- 226.8
Really. 226.8. I think I'm probably supposed to be eating more, but I'm not fatigued or hungry. It really is hard to get yourself back into a mindset that says "eat" when you've been forcing yourself to not eat for so long.
This only happened because I mentioned my "steady weight"... not that I'm objecting.
This only happened because I mentioned my "steady weight"... not that I'm objecting.
Saturday, February 19, 2011
Day 9
I am a very steady 229 right now. In the past 4 days, I haven't gone over 229.8 or under 229.2. I can't explain to you how thrilled I am to be in control of my weight.
I have not been working out. Honestly, this part of the diet isn't meant to continue losing weight. The idea is that my body should be getting used to the weight that it is, and accepting that this is my new weight. It is also teaching my metabolism/digestive system to process foods the way it is supposed to. I would love to work out all the time. I really enjoy it, but I don't know where in my schedule I would put it, and it isn't a part of the diet. I'm not going to lay out my weekly schedule to prove my point, but my mom can attest that I am a VERY busy person.
Still no cheats, but I accidentally put sugar in my mouth the other day. I refuse to count it as a cheat. I went to McDonalds to get some McDoubles for Jerimiah during break at the poker game, and got myself a "fruit and walnut salad." Due to my previous eating habits, I had no idea what this actually was. I was a little shocked to see the yogurt in the container of unblended apples, grapes, and walnuts, but I knew I couldn't eat it, and was glad they weren't pre-mixed. So I went back to the bar and sat down with my fruits and walnuts. I ate the fruits and popped a walnut piece in my mouth. THEY PUT SUGAR ON THEM!!! WHY?!?!?! Is that necessary? Isn't it supposed to be healthy? What the crap is the purpose of putting sugar on walnuts. EW. I spit it into an ash tray, and threw the rest of the container away.
I walked into a friend's house the other night, and his mom practically screamed at me. She kept going on and on about how good I look, and how much weight I've lost. I almost started crying. It's the first time that has happened to me (in that magnitude). I stood there talking to her and her daughter for about half an hour about the diet. They are both very tiny, which made the compliment hit me even harder.
Right now- I've been eating a lot of Subway Salads. Typically, I eat a club salad. I'm not supposed to be counting calories or anything (because I'm not supposed to be trying to lose weight) but I'm still being very conscious of what goes in my body. I try to eat enough meats, and I eat plenty of vegetables on my salads. If I'm guessing, I think I eat around 1500 calories a day. Not really sure on that, and honestly, I wouldn't be surprised if it was only 800.
Oh- and I drink a ridiculous amount of Diet Coke.
I have not been working out. Honestly, this part of the diet isn't meant to continue losing weight. The idea is that my body should be getting used to the weight that it is, and accepting that this is my new weight. It is also teaching my metabolism/digestive system to process foods the way it is supposed to. I would love to work out all the time. I really enjoy it, but I don't know where in my schedule I would put it, and it isn't a part of the diet. I'm not going to lay out my weekly schedule to prove my point, but my mom can attest that I am a VERY busy person.
Still no cheats, but I accidentally put sugar in my mouth the other day. I refuse to count it as a cheat. I went to McDonalds to get some McDoubles for Jerimiah during break at the poker game, and got myself a "fruit and walnut salad." Due to my previous eating habits, I had no idea what this actually was. I was a little shocked to see the yogurt in the container of unblended apples, grapes, and walnuts, but I knew I couldn't eat it, and was glad they weren't pre-mixed. So I went back to the bar and sat down with my fruits and walnuts. I ate the fruits and popped a walnut piece in my mouth. THEY PUT SUGAR ON THEM!!! WHY?!?!?! Is that necessary? Isn't it supposed to be healthy? What the crap is the purpose of putting sugar on walnuts. EW. I spit it into an ash tray, and threw the rest of the container away.
I walked into a friend's house the other night, and his mom practically screamed at me. She kept going on and on about how good I look, and how much weight I've lost. I almost started crying. It's the first time that has happened to me (in that magnitude). I stood there talking to her and her daughter for about half an hour about the diet. They are both very tiny, which made the compliment hit me even harder.
Right now- I've been eating a lot of Subway Salads. Typically, I eat a club salad. I'm not supposed to be counting calories or anything (because I'm not supposed to be trying to lose weight) but I'm still being very conscious of what goes in my body. I try to eat enough meats, and I eat plenty of vegetables on my salads. If I'm guessing, I think I eat around 1500 calories a day. Not really sure on that, and honestly, I wouldn't be surprised if it was only 800.
Oh- and I drink a ridiculous amount of Diet Coke.
Sunday, February 13, 2011
Day 42- er... 3?
We're gonna call it day 3... of phase 3... and 331.6.
I drank a glass of milk at work, ate a hot dog, ate an omelet, and drank a glass of milk with the omelet. I don't have a clue how I gained weight. That makes absolutely no sense at all.... except that I sat at my desk from 7-7 yesterday... but I don't know that daily weight can be accounted for like that. Like, daily weight changes (when you aren't taking HCG)... what do they mean? At this point, I'm supposed to do a "Steak Day" so says Pounds and Inches. You don't eat anything all day, then eat a steak for diner.
Here's what I attribute my gain to, and what I'm going to fix-
I drank a glass of milk at work, ate a hot dog, ate an omelet, and drank a glass of milk with the omelet. I don't have a clue how I gained weight. That makes absolutely no sense at all.... except that I sat at my desk from 7-7 yesterday... but I don't know that daily weight can be accounted for like that. Like, daily weight changes (when you aren't taking HCG)... what do they mean? At this point, I'm supposed to do a "Steak Day" so says Pounds and Inches. You don't eat anything all day, then eat a steak for diner.
Here's what I attribute my gain to, and what I'm going to fix-
- I do not eat regular meals. I may not even eat all day long, then eat diner when I get home, which tends to happen later than it should. SO- I will start planning meals (even if they are more like snacks) into my day, so it will keep my metabolism going. I brought a banana with me, and ate it once I got to work.
- I do not eat enough fruits or vegetables. This may not cause weight gain, but it is not good for me. I am going to start taking those vitamins I bought when I started this thing.
- I have not been drinking enough water. I think I had a single bottle yesterday. I will carry a water bottle around with me to class and make sure I have one with me most of the time. I am already through half a bottle this morning. I keep a case in my drawer at work, but they do me no good if I don't drink them.
- I need to come up with a steady work-out plan. I got home late last night, and didn't go to work out. I'm not sure if I plan on working out 5 or 6 days a week. I'd like to take off weekends, but two days in a row does not sound good. I don't know exactly what I'm going to do with that, but I need to figure it out.
Saturday, February 12, 2011
Day 41- 230.4
I will have to go back and fill in the details of my last week later. I don't have my records with me. I will tell you that I stalled out over the last week, so I decided not to push the diet further than what it is supposed to go. I guess I just got immune early. For two days after you stop taking the drops, you are supposed to continue the very low calorie diet, because the drops are in your system still. So day 38 was my last day taking drops. On day 39, every time I moved, I felt like I was going to pass out. I was light headed all day. I attributed this to my immunity to the HCG, and I chose not to do my second day of no food/no HCG. So on day 40 (instead of Day 41) I had my omelet. It was freakin awesome. I'm also allowed to have milk, so I bought a gallon of 1%. I can't bring myself to skim milk. Just can't.
I also went to work out yesterday. I'm really scared how this is going to affect my body. I have no desire to build muscle... there's plenty of it carrying around all this fat. I spent half an hour on the elliptical machine and half an hour on the bicycle. I plan on spending more time in there later, but yesterday was kind of an introduction day.
Now- I need YOUR help. I am not sure how much of what I need to eat at this point. I used an online tool to figure out my recommended daily consumptions. The second column is what I would need to cut my intake down to in order to continue to lose 2lbs a week. I can do this by not eating those calories, by working them off, or both. I have two problems. 1- That's a ton of calories and carbs just to maintain weight. I am fairly confident that if I ate that much, I would gain weight. 2- If these numbers really are accurate, then I had to have eaten more than 3000 calories a day (and who knows what else) to get this big in the first place. I guess where I need help is developing an exercise/diet plan. I always thought I knew how to eat right, and I just didn't pay attention. There are calories and carbs in almost everything. I have no desire to eat things loaded with carbs when I've been working so hard to lose the weight, but I have no idea how many I should be eating.
Maintain Weight Continue Weight loss
2.7.11 -Day 36
2.8.11- Day 37- 228.4
2.9.11- Day 38
2.10.11- Day 39
2.11.11- Day 40
I also went to work out yesterday. I'm really scared how this is going to affect my body. I have no desire to build muscle... there's plenty of it carrying around all this fat. I spent half an hour on the elliptical machine and half an hour on the bicycle. I plan on spending more time in there later, but yesterday was kind of an introduction day.
Now- I need YOUR help. I am not sure how much of what I need to eat at this point. I used an online tool to figure out my recommended daily consumptions. The second column is what I would need to cut my intake down to in order to continue to lose 2lbs a week. I can do this by not eating those calories, by working them off, or both. I have two problems. 1- That's a ton of calories and carbs just to maintain weight. I am fairly confident that if I ate that much, I would gain weight. 2- If these numbers really are accurate, then I had to have eaten more than 3000 calories a day (and who knows what else) to get this big in the first place. I guess where I need help is developing an exercise/diet plan. I always thought I knew how to eat right, and I just didn't pay attention. There are calories and carbs in almost everything. I have no desire to eat things loaded with carbs when I've been working so hard to lose the weight, but I have no idea how many I should be eating.
Maintain Weight Continue Weight loss
- Calories- 2868 *Calories- 1868
- Carbs- 394 *Carbs- 256
- Protein- 107 *Protein- 70
- Fats- 95 *Fats- 62
2.7.11 -Day 36
2.8.11- Day 37- 228.4
2.9.11- Day 38
2.10.11- Day 39
2.11.11- Day 40
Sunday, February 6, 2011
Day 35
232.2
I am getting very close to the end of this. I can have anything without starch or sugar in 7 days. This is pretty much still fairly limited. Eggs, meats, vegetables (except beans), milk, and fruits (I think... I need to find out if I have limits on fruits with excessive natural sugar) are allowed. I will still watch my intake. This is typically the most important part of the diet. This is where my body learns what to do with all of the stuff in normal food without turning it into fat. After that, I have at least one week of completely normal food before I can return to the HCG.
Pointing out a few interesting facts:
I am getting very close to the end of this. I can have anything without starch or sugar in 7 days. This is pretty much still fairly limited. Eggs, meats, vegetables (except beans), milk, and fruits (I think... I need to find out if I have limits on fruits with excessive natural sugar) are allowed. I will still watch my intake. This is typically the most important part of the diet. This is where my body learns what to do with all of the stuff in normal food without turning it into fat. After that, I have at least one week of completely normal food before I can return to the HCG.
Pointing out a few interesting facts:
- I have so far lost 27.8 pounds.
- I have not had anything sweet in 33 days.
- I have not had anything greasy in 33 days.
- I have not had any caffeine in 33 days.
- It will be another 27 days before I can have a piece of bread.
- I can start working out in 7 days.
Saturday, February 5, 2011
Days 29-34
Day 34- 232.8
I'm starting to stall out. There are a couple of possibilities. I could just be stalling out because I'm coming close to the end of this, and my body is becoming immune. OR- I am enjoying my food too much. I've been using tomato sauce (without any added sugar) as my vegetable. I don't think this would be a bad thing, but I've done it for the past... er... 5 meals or so. I've gotten really good at cooking. I use my tomato sauce, and turn it into a type of marinara sauce. (I just add water and a bunch of seasonings.) Then I put it over my chicken, or beef. Last night I used my lean beef and made meatballs, and put it over them. My 4 oz of meat was turned into 6 meatballs (and I made Mom some too). I then made my sauce and poured it over them. It could just be that I've been using a little more sauce than I should. Either way. My last 7 days will be back down to a VERY strict diet.... I mean, it's been strict for 34 days, but I've been trying new things (with only my allowed ingredients), and I think the combination of them could have an effect. Like my onion rings- I really think, they only stopped me from losing weight because I liked them.
I've been watching this show called, "I Used to be Fat." I love it. I would give anything to have a personal trainer for 100 days. I have NO problem following the rules, and I have no problem working out and pushing my limits. There was a girl on there a few days ago who only weighed 185 when she started. That's ridiculous. They told her that at 5'3" she should be at 120. I have NO desire to be that tiny, but I'd love to be on that show just to show all the pansy fat people up. I'm a pretty determined fat person.
Day 33- 232.0
Day 32- 232.8
Day 31- 233.4
Day 30- 235.0
Day 29- 236.4
I'm starting to stall out. There are a couple of possibilities. I could just be stalling out because I'm coming close to the end of this, and my body is becoming immune. OR- I am enjoying my food too much. I've been using tomato sauce (without any added sugar) as my vegetable. I don't think this would be a bad thing, but I've done it for the past... er... 5 meals or so. I've gotten really good at cooking. I use my tomato sauce, and turn it into a type of marinara sauce. (I just add water and a bunch of seasonings.) Then I put it over my chicken, or beef. Last night I used my lean beef and made meatballs, and put it over them. My 4 oz of meat was turned into 6 meatballs (and I made Mom some too). I then made my sauce and poured it over them. It could just be that I've been using a little more sauce than I should. Either way. My last 7 days will be back down to a VERY strict diet.... I mean, it's been strict for 34 days, but I've been trying new things (with only my allowed ingredients), and I think the combination of them could have an effect. Like my onion rings- I really think, they only stopped me from losing weight because I liked them.
I've been watching this show called, "I Used to be Fat." I love it. I would give anything to have a personal trainer for 100 days. I have NO problem following the rules, and I have no problem working out and pushing my limits. There was a girl on there a few days ago who only weighed 185 when she started. That's ridiculous. They told her that at 5'3" she should be at 120. I have NO desire to be that tiny, but I'd love to be on that show just to show all the pansy fat people up. I'm a pretty determined fat person.
Day 33- 232.0
Day 32- 232.8
Day 31- 233.4
Day 30- 235.0
Day 29- 236.4
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