Rob said I'd gain 10lbs while his grandma was in town

I DIDN'T!!!

I made it through spring break, and I'm still consistently between 181-183.

I had a day where I weighed 186, but I'm pretty sure that was just because chili stopped me up. I've been pretty stopped up lately. I'm trying to drink a bunch of water to get rid of that problem...

And, I'm ragging- not that you wanted to know that, but you should know, because it usually affects my weight.

My gyno lady said that I had to expect to gain back the last 5lbs. I think it has something to do with filling back up your intestines when you don't eat much.

Speaking of the gyno lady- I have to have a LEEP Procedure done, and the people who know what that is won't be in until tomorrow, so some front desk lady called me to set up the appointment, but can't really tell me why exactly I need it or what exactly happens, or how exactly it will affect me. Tomorrow, I get to call up there and talk to someone who isn't a complete moron.

My mother, the wise woman that she is, advised me to see if they will give me a prescription for a single Xanax or something. Here's the thing- I don't handle this kind of thing well. I hyperventilate when I have to get a single shot. They're going to give me three (funny how that seemed to be the only thing the not-so-informed nurse lady knew) in a place where people should never be sticking needles. So, people keep asking me if I'm okay. Medically, I'm probably going to be fine. Mentally- no. I am not okay. I'm kinda freaking out. According to Google, they're going to burn off part of my coochie. So, NO! I AM NOT OKAY!

But I'll be fine.

I do not want to post this

but my blog is my accountability partner, and I would be cheating if I didn't.

My weight is at 183.

I stopped HCG, because I did not see results for a significant amount of time.

I am looking for better ways to lose weight for someone of my size. I do not know that HCG is the best game plan for me anymore. When there is a lot of weight to lose, I truly believe it is helpful, but to be honest, I do not have that much left, and HCG does not seem to be doing what it used to. Part of that could be due to FDA regulations and changes in the formula.

There is a diet plan that is done through my gynecologist's office, but it is VERY expensive, and I'm not prepared to dish out that kind of dough.

I know that eating healthy always and paying attention to what I put in my body is a must, but I still have quite a bit of weight to lose, and I do not consider myself in a maintenance phase yet. I still need to be dropping weight.

I am a person who requires rules.

Without strict rules, wiggle room will be my weakness. I'd rather not have wiggle room.

That is all.

Stalling Out

I'm at 176.4. I've been fluxuating between 175.4 and 177.4 for the past week or so. I'm doing everything I'm supposed to be. Drinking diet sodas- probably not good...

I haven't slept much, that's a big deal in weight loss. I need to sleep more... I know.

I am in the middle of midterms, so stress is there.

I am very very tired, and very very sick... I'm on day 32. I'm currently not sure how this round is going to end. I just want to get below 170, but I don't know that I can...